Monday, March 14, 2016

Lost in life

How do we get lost in life?
What do I mean with this? What is getting lost? 
It’s when you just go on day after day, without minding the important things, trapped in the routine. 
This might sound a bit tragic, but it’s what happens when your daily schedule is just to full and stressful and you can’t manage to stop thinking about work even on your free time.

One thing we read everyday and don't even know about it. Road signs. Without these signs we more than likely couldn't get around town and know where we are going. I have been lost before driving in unfamiliar places and these road signs helped me out a lot.:
How did it start?
For about three years I was unemployed. It’s something that might sound incredible to most people that don’t live in Italy. Is it really possible that you can’t find at least a Mac Donald’s that would hire you??? Yes, it is. 

To many people’s disbelief, I tried everything in these 3 years; due to my being already 29-30 years old and due to Italian taxes, laws etc, the only job I got for about 9 months was through an agency. Unstable on-call-shifts, dangerous places in the worst neighborhoods, crazy customers, constant calls on my private phone number on my free-time…shitty pay.
But I learnt a lot not only from the job, but also from many people that I have met and worked with.

Three years is a lot, it’s three years with almost no money, feeling useless and being home and quite alone-being my friends all at work or doing things I couldn’t afford to do. The silver lining in this was I started beading seriously and dedicated all my time to crafting. But I was quite depressed and in the end even beading or knitting didn’t give me so much joy anymore.
After this and after using all my money for a course that was quite useless, after the last work-for-free-job-offers, I finally found the courage to start a German course and move to Austria.

Now, to be clear: my German is still terribly elementary, I had to attend courses for months before being able to have a proper conversation with my roommate, and I still can’t understand the local dialect (which is the main form of communication here); but a few months after moving I got a job and now, 18 months after starting it, I got my second promotion to Trainee Manager.

I think I like who I am becoming. #quote:
Despite feeling terribly proud of myself, I also feel quite stressed from all that I have to learn and the fear of doing something wrong is always there: I have to run a department, make orders, organize employees, often taking care of the entire floor. Private life is quite hard working every week on different shifts, being these shifts never the same of your friends J

And, as it happens all the time: once you finally have the money to indulge yourself with anything, you don’t have any more time.
I feel often I waste most of my free time just browsing the internet with no purpose, just unconsciously looking for something that inspires me enough. Sometimes I start some projects or get really excited on something, then after a while I just drop it – not enough time, other priorities, blablabla…

I recently started to get an interest in Journaling and planners and I am still trying to figure out what and how and if I should give it a try.

Does making lists really help? Would you really look at them? Isn’t it a bit counterproductive to actually bring in your private life the stressing organization of the job-life? Shouldn’t your free time be more spontaneous and plan-free?

kate spade:
What I noticed is that, looking at other people’s journals, this methods can be a nice reminder of what is really important for you, which goals you have, which dreams you can actually pursue.

I found myself making a list of what I really want to achieve and learn in the next years and realize that, with a little bit of organization and, sure, of consistency, I could have already done most of them.

Plus...isn't this digital life frustrating at times???
To have the possibilities of taking millions of instant pictures, just to never really look at them...
Isn't there more then just selfies after a travel: all the little things that happen and were funny, just got lost in your brain cause all you do is taking fotos with your phone...
So many little sweet things that could make every day a celebration of life, just get lost cause we don't want to spend 5 minutes recording it somewhere else than instagram or facebook...
This is why I would like to give a try to travel journaling and bullet journaling; we will see in some weeks how long will my commitment last :) .

Friday, January 22, 2016

Winter knits

As many other beaders, and as it happens every winter, I have been stung again by the knitting bug.
Would have been nicer if it would have been the bead one... :)
In order to avoid every winter's mistakes - neverending scrolling of Pinterest and Ravelry, lots of euros spent for yarn, lots of unfinished and unworn projects left in the closet - I decided to dedicate myself to easy and stimulating little projects.
First one is the amazing Langfield, by Martina Behm.

I love her patterns. Who doesn't?!
If the self striping yarn and the interesting construction weren't enough to convince you, just know that you don't need to swatch to check your gauge for this hat, so no struggling at all! Just pick any color changing yarn and start knitting. Easiest hat ever, I wear it every day and received so many compliments - also from the lady in the yarn store :).
Another one for a guy is on its way!

The second project, again from her, is the Hitchhiker shawl.

Left in a drawer for almost 2 years, i picked it up again and remembered why paying more money for good needles is always worth it. I am bringing it always with me and hope to finish it before spring comes!

Last one, yeah already too many, another shawl. Hey, not my fault if the yarn store is next to my workplace!
It's the Baktus scarf, by Strikkelise.

Easiest thing ever, amazing wool that claims to contain jojoba and aloe vera, again self striping and yet "striped" with a neutral tone...if ever finished, will become my pass-partout.

One final note: a huge thank you to my Mom, who made me a surprise and bought me this gorgeous knitting bowl:

It's handmade by Toepferstudio, a Innsbruck based amazing lab/shop. Check out their website!

Thursday, January 21, 2016


Nobody likes to receive critics, that's for sure; but they can become, especially if nicely formulated, a good way to revise and improve your work.
Bad feedbacks are the worse, especially when you feel like people overreacted a bit and gave space to their frustration .

I received a very disappointed feedback for one of my tutorials just before Christmas. I felt quite bad about it, especially 'cause I find it a bit unfair and I never received complaints about them in these years of selling. I wanted to kindly contact the buyer to ask for explanation, in order to actually see what I did so bad to cause so much confusion and disappointment, but a person dear to me had a snow-related accident and my thoughts and priority went elsewhere. I also thought nobody wants to be bothered on Christmas time from a seller...

Twice in 3 years has a customer asked for some help and deeper instructions, which I was really happy to give; I drew additional schemes for them, we had a long conversation since they were of these customers actually ended up collaborating with me and becoming a tester for a new tutorial!

Before creating my first tut, I decided to deeply analize bead tutorials from other (more famous) beaders and sellers: I am myself a buyer and what I wanted to achieve was a tutorial that also a total beginner might use.

This is why I made sure to use Illustrator to draw each and every single passage, even the really simple ones, to make sure that I didn't give anything for granted. Fotos might be tricky and I found myself more than once using my immagination to understand where the needle was supposed to go.

Far from me the idea of saying that my tutorials are great or perfect: they are just made with love and dedication and they are open to revision and endless help from my side.

Ok, I admit that all this is actually a way to excuse myself from never editing and selling the 2 new tutorials that are "almost" ready since two months on my laptop... but the feeling of disappointing a person is not easy to overcome.

I hope to cope better in the future :)